On Friday night I made a pie I had never made before, as I had planned to do for weeks. I haven’t been home for more than a few days since early September. All the travel made me feel far from home and from my children, but also from myself. But by Friday I could see that the relief and pride and comfort I hoped I would experience coming home after pushing such a raw book into the world wasn’t going to come—the world was still broken, and now looked worse off than when I first left.
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